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[23 Jun 2005|10:39am] |
I know you guys will kill me...
... but I think I'm gonna make ANOTHER JOURNAL. :( :( :(
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[22 Jun 2005|02:02pm] |
Quiz. :D Ignore if you want.
1. Name: Ben
2. Your Nick Names: Benny Boy and Benjamin Franklin \:
3. Birthday: 01/02/93
4. Place of Birth: Wisconsin
5. Zodiac Sign: Capricorn(us)
6. Male or Female: Male
7. Age: 12
8. School: Dumbass Christians United :/ :/ :/
9. Occupation: Ew.
10. Residence: Minnesota. SOMEWHERE.
11. Screen Name: -cough- AK Ice Genshu, AK (AuroraKing), CC (Chaos Chao), Pherae the Knight, Pherae, Feesh, Phairy, Fish, AK00n, Europop
__Your Appearance___
12. Hair Color: Dark Blond // Brown..-ish
13. Hair Long or Short: Short
14. Eye Color: Blue with a "touch" of green
15. How do ur nails look: :/ Ur.
17. Do you have a crush on someone right NOW (truthfully): SURE DO.
20. Think your attractive: XD I'm self-conscious about myself
21. Piercing's: No
22. Tattoo: No
23. Righty or Lefty: Right-ee
___Your 'Firsts'___
24. First RollerCoaster: The little one at Camp Snoopy.. XD
25. First cell phone: Like a year ago...
26. First best friend(s): IRL, Chelsea. Online, Tailsy or Jolty. But probably Tailsy. x3
27. First Award: Something religious... I think o.o
28. First Sport You Joined: I still have yet to join a sport ^^
29. First pet: Cat
30. First vacation: Earth. :D
31. First Concert: Rick Springfield (I WAS 8, STFU XD) you mean REAL concert? If so, I will be seeing Green Day with Jimmy Eat World next week.
32. First Love: Tailsy. :3
___ Favorites___
33. Movie: Wayne's World
34. TV Show: Eh... probably X-Play. Anything on G4 besides those fucktard car shows. :D
35. Color: Black
36. Bands: -gets out list- Green Day, t.A.T.u., My Chemical Romance, Avril Lavigne, The Wallflowers, Weezer, Goo Goo Dolls, Jason Mraz, No Doubt. And Hampton. :D
37. Song: ATM, "Iris" - Goo Goo Dolls
38. Food: HAM. :D
39. Drink: Water? o.o
40. Candy: Snickers.
41. Sport: Sports suck. :)
42. Fav sport To Watch: HOW ABOUT THE EVER-GROWING SPORT OF THUMB-NUMBING SWEAT-INDUCING VIDEO GAMING? :D
43. Brand Of Clothing: Who needs clothes? ^_^ -shot-
44. Stores: Barnes & Noble.
45. Subject: Geography. Just not Asian or African geography, 'cause those are boring.
46. Animal: ._. Mongoose.
48. Magazines: MAGAZINES ARE FOR THOSE WITHOUT ENOUGH BALLS TO USE EZINES. :/
___Currently___
49. Eating (or the last thing you ate): McDonald's.
52. Online?: No. Fucking... Fuck.
53. Listening to: "Iris" - Goo Goo Dolls. ^_^
54. Thinking About: Ham
55. Wanting To: See a llama kiss a llama on the llama.
56. Watching: My computer screen.
___Your Future___
58. Want Kids?: Eh, depends. Depends on what my wife would think.
59. Want to Get Married?: Yes.
60. Careers in Mind: GARBAGE MAN. :D I'M SO AWESOME.
__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex (or Same Sex)___
67. Cute or Sexy: CUTE!!
68. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
69. Hugs or Kisses: HUGS~!! <3
70. Short or Tall: Neither. Like uh... not short, not tall. o.o I dunno.
71. Easygoing or serious: Easygoing.
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: <-- Both suck. :D
73. Fatty or Skinny: Oh yeah like I'd say "Fatty" -___-;
74. Sensitive or Loud: LOUD
75. Hook-up or Relationship: Relationship
76. Sweet or Caring: Caring
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: TROUBLE MAKER!! x3
___Have You Ever___
78. Kissed a Stranger: No o.o
79. Drank Alcohol: No o.o
80. Smoked: No o.o
81. Ran Away From Home: No o.o
82. Broken a Bone: No o.o
83. Got an X-ray: Yes o.o
84. Broken Someones Heart: No o.o
86. Turned Someone Down: No o.o
87. Cried When Someone Died: Yes o.o
88. Cried At School: Yes o.o
___Do You Believe In___
89. God: Eh, I believe in /a/ God, more or less the Christian God.
90. Miracles: ... Eh. :/
91. Love At First Sight: Yup.
92. Ghosts: Hell yeah! x3
93. Aliens: Not in the way we think of them. But yes.
94. Soul Mates: Yes.
95. Heaven: Yes.
96. Hell: ... Sometimes.
98. Kissing on The First Date: Eh, maybe. :/ Depends...
99. Horoscopes: Nope.
___Answer Truthfully___
100. Is There Someone You are thinking about right now?: Tailsy // Sarah. (Sarah sounds cooler... ^^;;)
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[22 Jun 2005|08:00am] |
Heh, okay, new "top ten favorite songs of the moment" list. Enjoy!
10. "I Fought the Law" - Green Day
A humorous, light-hearted song that always puts me in a good mood. Billie Joe's tone of voice just makes the song even funnier. A must-listen-to for Green Day fans.
9. "I'm Just a Kid" - Simple Plan
Because sometimes AK feels emo too.
8. "Malchik Gay" - t.A.T.u.
My second-favorite t.A.T.u. song, and the only track to have never left my MP3 player.
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Okay now... these next seven, they're all REALLY GOOD. Excluding numbers one and two, these were all extremely hard to place.
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7. "Wake Me Up When September Ends" - Green Day
A sad, slow song. I love when the drums & bass come in. The video is really touching and really gets you into thinking what the song is about. (Even though it was written about Billie's father, meh.)
6. "Ocean Avenue" - Yellowcard
I can't even name a teenager who hasn't heard this song... or, an American teenager at that. This is one of the most popular teen-pop-rock tracks of its time.
5. "Take Me Away" - Avril Lavigne
In my opinion, Avril's best track. It signifies her album's new maturity and plus, the song is really nice as well.
4. "Thank You for the Venom" - My Chemical Romance
So awesome. So effing cool. Best MCR song, hands down. "Hallelujah... lock and load..."
3. "Brain Stew/Jaded" - Green Day
I put the two together because you will /always/ hear them together, in music videos and everything.
2. "Show Me Love" [Extended Version] - t.A.T.u.
I LOVE THE CHORUS. The chorus itself gave this song its high position. It's so catchy and just... wow.
1. "Iris" - Goo Goo Dolls
Haha, I bet you're all "wtf gay 90s song" at me right now, but my favorite song of the moment is definately Iris. It brings back a lot of memories. Even though it was overplayed in its time, it's still a beautiful song that I can listen to over and over again without getting sick of.
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[21 Jun 2005|10:21am] |
Hey you know what? This rant is related to HL, but not specifically HL. It's all of those narrow-minded Christian fools who are against gay rights.
"Hey you know what let's say that we give gays free rights but not let them marry!"
Your hypocrisy hurts. Your words are cold. Tell me, would you hate a man because he's black? You would hate a man because he's homosexual. Yes, you would. Don't give me any of that "I hate the sin not the sinner" shit I've been hearing all the time.
"Oh but you know what gays CHOOSE to be homosexual so let's pray for them so that they become normal again."
The only person who needs any fucking praying is you. You to realize how much you're hurting me and others like me. I'm a bisexual and you know what? I'm fucking proud to say it in front of your Bible-scanning faces.
I'll finish this rant when the closed-minded people think of more stupid statements to quote. :)
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[21 Jun 2005|08:44am] |
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lolz if you don't comment on this journal entry, you suck donkey genitals. :/
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[19 Jun 2005|11:26pm] |
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I really don't update my LJ anymore... =[
Anyway, that HL crap down there... ignore. It's all over now.
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[17 Jun 2005|09:07am] |
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I've not even going to both LJ-cutting this, half of you people probably don't even know what Heaven's Lounge is. You might recognize it if I referred you there the last couple days. I'm feeling really damn moody and hated right now, so if this post is really emo.. I don't give a fuck. Beware of the overuse of the word 'fuck', because I just don't give a fucking fucker fuck.
I got you 21 new members. 21 NEW FUCKING MEMBERS. If they don't post, well that's too bad. I stayed up all night until I felt like my eyes were going to bleed because I cared so much about getting referrals. And now all they do is fucking whine at me because they don't post. NOT MY PROBLEM, HEY AT LEAST I GOT MEMBERS. WHOA CAN'T LOSE WITH THAT LOGIC. >:OOO
So today Ross makes an Announcement, and you can view the announcement here. Notice how Shmealt is the only one anybody who comments will mention? Hmm?
I try talking to any of the members (I won't name names, but I really should) via instant messenger. They're all too busy "talking to their friends." What am I, some fucking reject you can't even call your "friend"? And two of these people are ADMINS there. God must really love you. He must think you're the best fucking thing on earth.
I feel like making Satan my avatar, spamming all over the place, and flaming people for no reason there just because of how shitty it's made me felt. But then I remember - that's the only forum I truely have! Sure, there's TCoD, but I'm not fond of the rules or management there. I can't even truely be myself there becuase... oh what the fuck. HEY EVERYONE, PHERAE THE KNIGHT IS AK. Gasp.
Uh... okay. I think the rant's over. There's a million things right now affecting this, but they're all too personal to explain. These are the major causes, however.
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[16 Jun 2005|11:08pm] |
People tell me all the time I'm not annoying, I'm not stupid, I'm not a total asshole.
But I'm refusing to believe any of it.
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[15 Jun 2005|12:08am] |
So... It's late at night, and I'm freaking tired.
But I can't get to sleep. No matter how hard I try. I'm dehydrated, my chest hurts, I'm dizzy, my throat is killing me, and I'm paranoid/depressed.
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[14 Jun 2005|05:21pm] |
I was having a good day... making an awesome graphic... and then my dad goes and fucking ruins it... Now I'm so fucking depressed...
What an ass.. what a fucking ass.
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[14 Jun 2005|12:28am] |
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While messing around with MIDI Maker, a program that lets you make your own MIDIs, I found myself composing a really nice tune. I composed some lyrics to go with it.
Note that's it's supposed to be a very soft song, until the chorus. Then, it's still a slow song but it's not soft. It's more of a mainstream-emo-punk song, like Simple Plan's "Untitled."
Anyway...
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Every step I take is just a bigger mistake
All the visions I had have just gone to waste
My ideals are no more
The voices in my head are screaming, my suicide
And all I've got is my shadow for company
As I wander the maze and gaze at shattered dreams
I know I'll never escape
'Cause I'm not leaving until my shadow is far away
So here's to you, my faithful friend
Who's reassurance never ends
And yet I'm sick of you and want you to fade away
I'm falling to pieces
And all I've got is you for company (my shadow and my best friend)
As I wander the maze and gaze at shattered dreams (the ones I've never known)
I know I'll never escape
'Cause I'm not leaving until my shadow is far away
My heart is still beating
But deep inside I'm bleeding
And nobody's going to come and save me
The silhouette gazing back at me is my only hope
All I've got is my shadow for company
As I wander the maze and gaze at shattered dreams
I know I'll never escape
'Cause I'm not leaving until my shadow is far away
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Yeah, it's really... emo, I know. The MIDI itself is just a normal ol' guitar, nothing special.
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[12 Jun 2005|10:15pm] |
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I've been acting so immature the last couple months...
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[03 Jun 2005|05:58pm] |
God I want to fucking kill my dad.
"Mom's getting KFC."
Him: "KFC? You're kidding, right? God damn it!"
He gets all pissed off and locks himself in his office when he doesn't get a dinner he likes. Good fucking god I want to just... watch him burn... ¬¬
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[02 Jun 2005|06:18am] |
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Today's the last day of school, and it's only going from 8:30 AM - 11:00 AM. :/ I *would* be happy that summer's finally here, but the thing is... I'm NOT. My school is closing, and now I have to fucking move to the preppiest school in the state. X_X
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[01 Jun 2005|08:51pm] |
My God does anybody think I need to take things more... seriously?
Be honest. o_O
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[31 May 2005|07:09am] |
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"Maria" - Green Day... |
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She smashed the radio with the board of education
Turn up the static left of the state of the nation
Turn up the flame, step on the gas
Burning the flag at half mast
She's a rebel's forgotten son
An export of the revolution
She is the first voice of the last ones in the line
She'll drag the lake to keep the vendetta alive
Bring in the head of the government
The dog ate the document
Somebody shot the President
And no one knows where Maria went?
Maria, Maria, Maria,
Where did you go?
Be careful what you're offering
Your breath lacks the conviction
Drawing the line in the dirt
Because the last decision
....is no
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[29 May 2005|06:02pm] |
I'M PLAYING THE CAPS LOCK GAME WHERE I KEEP ON CAPS LOCK FOR AT LEAST A WEEK AND MAKE EVERYONE HATE ME.
I LOVE YOU GUYS.
YOU SHOULD PLAY TOO.
IT HELPS YOUR FRIENDSHIPS - I PROMISE.
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[28 May 2005|02:03pm] |
OOOOO: OMG.
Larissa and/or Freezie and/or whoever likes t.A.T.u., I just found something REALLY FREAKY about the t.A.T.u. songs.
Let me show you... the first one is Clowns (Can You See Me Now?) Pay attention to the following verses:
Can you see?
Can you see?
See me here in the air
Not holding on to anywhere
But holding on so beware
I have secrets I won't share
See me here pushing you
If I then deny I do
Contemplate or wish away
If I ask you not to stay
Clowns that only let you know
Where you let your senses go
Clowns all around you
It's a cross I need to bear
All this black and cruel despair
This is an emergency
Don't you hide your eyes from me
Open them and see me now
Look at it.. it relates to the story of Peter in the bible. Peter's denial and hypocricy is clearly told in here. "Open them and SEE ME NOW..."
And the next song is How Soon is Now?. Pay attention to this verse:
I am the son and the heir
Of a shyness that is criminally vulgar
I am the son and heir
Of nothing in particular
Doesn't that explain itself? The SON and the HEIR?
I'm not like a Jesus-freak or anything but I must say... that is weird... o_O;; I shall continue to listen to t.A.T.u. and everything though, just really felt like sharing that... I doubt it's a coincidence, though.
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[28 May 2005|08:45am] |
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XD omg, Pokémon Channel owns.
Pikachu was HUMPING a Snorlax doll.
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[27 May 2005|10:20am] |
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Today has been the BEST DAY EVER. No school at all today -- gas leak! And I just found a decent version of "Shut Up" on Limewire... hehe... >3
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